emo

been running all this time...
not facing what's the reality.

i wished i never asked...
i wished i didnt go home that day.
it could have been different...
we could have been happier.

can't you see in my eyes?
can't you feel my pain?
do you feel me?

back in action

am i?

am i really back for more action?
or am i merely wasting my time here?

am i still waiting?
or simply waiting for the time...


is there still time?
time for what?

to make up?
no...
but there's time to move on

the sunny state of relief

i never wanted to be here.
but i am forced to do so..
it's not about choice...when you don't have any.

i'll let this come to pass,
as i did before.

i miss the sunny state of relief.
one day i'll be there...soon

moment in time

i think of the time when you stop and think of me...

thank you for these moments...

i dont have anything to hold on to...

except this.



/ara100705

MASTAPLAN

God Has Plans
Even when you felt He wasn't listening,
He heard your humble cry.
Even when the clouds were darkened,
He had plans for your blue sky.
Even when your heart was breaking,
He had plans for healing oil.
Even when your burden was heavy,
He had plans to share your toil.
Even when you felt so lonely,
He had plans to be by your side.
Even when you felt like quitting,
He had plans to be your guide.
Even when your plans were so uncertain,
He had plans in place for you.
Even when you felt no love,
our dear God had plans of love so true.

By Suzanne B. Lester
Copyright 1999



i found this poem in the internet while surfing for "strength"...
i've conversed with people to gain enlightenment.
sometimes i pity myself for being in this position...
but hey,life's like that, shit happens.

despite of being alone,
i found solace in solitude.
hopefully, in God's time,ill find myself happy again.

september end

whew!!!

what a way to end september...
to be confined in the hospital!

anyways...it was one of those treasured moments...
i felt some life came back into my friend.
it was wierd and at the same time sweet..
to be cared for that way.

but thing's were too good to be true...
before my stint in the hospital ended,
so was the illusion of a happy ending.

my friend was in a melancholic mood again.